Racial Thinking

What's this in my brain,

That keeps my mind in stain?
Why can't I praise my friend,
Who has my back to the end?
It's this racial cancer,
Cut it out, is the answer.

I'm free from the racial thought.

My friend free from my sinful plot.

Now color is a blessing not a curse.

Harmony can reign in the ‘verse.

Only you can stop the cancer in your brain.

Reject it, forsake it, become sane.

Fight through the shame.

So you can stop the pain.

EC Holm 2017

Constructing Your Fortress of Safety

Wouldn't you love to have a house by the ocean or a mountain with cool breeze.  Someplace to call your own and where you can be at peace?  Well, we live in the real world where people bother us, lie to us, and don't often enough seem to improve themselves.  For the Highly Sensitive Person this world is a nightmare of constant bombardment of emotions.  Having a mental place of solitude and safety can help the day to day debacle.  It's a place to go to de-stress when you can't go anywhere else.  Let's build ourselves a safe place and fill it with useful things, and this is how you do it.

Make a building.  It can be a building you know or one you make up.  Make sure that it's a building where you feel love and loved.  To help your memory, you can draw it.  Make detailed plans about it.  Then, think about the base material with which you want it built.  I like concrete.  Its strong and durable.  Large logs are also a good option.  The point is that the outer wall should be for protection from the outer world.  Imagine the outer walls.  Feel them inside and out.  Then lay a reflective shield on the outside.  Next, lay a blue inner shield on the inside.  Now you have the shell of your home, your fortress of safety.

Now lets populate the place.  Think what rooms you will need.  I personally opted for a worship room, a library, and an intimate space.  You should make rooms where you will spend some time in and use for your own needs.  Now visit each room.  Put lights in it.  Put down a nice floor and wall paneling.  Put some furniture you like in it.  You should feel comfortable in this fortress of safety.  Once your comfortable there, you will want to spend time there.

Sure it's your place and your space, but it doesn't have to be lonely in there.  Make characters that though are an extension of yourself, can do tasks for you.  I strongly recommend a guardian angel or a bodyguard of some sort.  You never know when you might get an unexpected visitor that plans to stay.  Bodyguards are good to throw out unwanted guests.

I have always heard that it is good to keep your house in order.  Keeping your mind in order is also good.  This method is a 3 dimensional way of doing that.  Since I have started residing in my house in my mind, I have been more at peace and less affected  by the world around me. 

Letting Go

There are an innumerable amount of incidents that occur just because someone is unwilling to let go.  Spouses argue and fight, parents and children clash, even professionals fight with the bosses or piers when they have to give up control on something they've been working on for a while.  Empaths are not immune to this.  I had a recent episode and I learned a couple of things how to deal with it.  Though I still have to prove my techniques, I have uses two and things are going well so far.  I want to share with you what these techniques are and how they work together.

The first one is what I term returning intention.  In my case, I took responsibility for someone for the longest time and effectively mentored them.  Now they are doing well, but I still see mistakes and areas where they could do much better.  I became critical and it came out in the form of a spat.  So what's happening is that my intention (or manifestation) on this person has been there for so long, I was still acting on it when it was unnecessary.  So I returned the intention to myself, effectively recalling it so it has no more action.  After doing this I instantly felt better about the matter.

The second technique was emotion flowing.  After having a spat with someone, you may feel insecure about being around them.  Since being around a friend should be a safe environment, emotion flowing should be appropriate.  This is where your near the person and let their emotions or energies flow through you without you grabbing hold of them.  Instead you just let them flow in and out of you.  This is a 'hands off' approach.  At the same time you get used to their emotions and energies and over time become comfortable with them. 

Returning intention and emotion flowing allows you to let go.  One relieves you of the responsibility, and the other helps mend and transform the relationship to something more positive.  At the same time the other person will feel more free around you.  Being empowered and having freedom are great gifts in life.

Practicing returning intention and emotion flowing help you to let go of you matured proteges.  Richard Bach wrote "If you love someone, set them free.  If they come back they're yours;  if they don't they never were."  Letting go is one of the great lessons in life.  The more willing we are to let go, the less arguments and incidents we will have.

Being Me

If there is one thing that defines this era since the 70's it's being ourselves.  Since World War II, the idea that individual sacrifice for the good of the group was prominent.  That's why companies have their employees travel all over in blatant disregard of family life.  I don't like that.  I'm not like that.  I'm independent.  I choose to be me and nobody else.  I gave up the responsibility of being anyone to everyone.  That's why I do not follow one established belief system.  That's why I'm make one for me. 

In my past lives, of what I know, I have been a part of Magick.  I resonate with much of it, but I cannot go back to it in its entirety.  The problem is that any belief system has truth in it with a measure of legend and useless theology.  Out of most belief systems the basics tend to be true.  Humans are powerful beings and are for the most part live lives that are ignorant to such power, therefore they need to be taught.  Humans also have the basic choice of doing good or harm.  There are many other belief systems that have similar basics to Magick such as Reiki and others and most Asian martial arts.  The difference is that the Asians hold to building yourself up with these techniques and intent, while Magick tends to focus on the outer world of the human.  Regardless, when a belief system is around for long periods of time, it tends to get corrupted.  That's why I don't adhere to any, though I may adhere to all in one aspect or another.

So what do I do?  Like my grandfather said, I steal with my eyes.  I take the basic principles and try them out.  So I take a practical approach.  As an empath, I first had to figure out the chaos I was picking up.  The practical advice from other empaths and empath psychologists really helped.  I've tried different techniques such as shielding, pushing out emotion, and others for my own protection.  I've experimented with intention and started to analyze it with my empathic insights.  I came up with a working model of intent.  I also found things that I think some don't realize.  The difference and struggle the analytical brain has in dealing with the institutional brain is astounding.  I often here radio commentators say things like "I don't understand how but a mother found superhuman strength to pick up a car to save her child."  I wonder how is it that people don't understand that the nature of the analytical brain and its limitations.  So this is what I do, I prove all things for myself.

Being myself is the greatest adventure I've been on.  Sometimes it's hard because of the influence everyone else has in your life.  I find it is worth it though.

Crash - an explaination

Crash is a set of three word pics that I put together.  I comprises of three different scopes but all the same theme.  That theme is to overcome distress.

Breaking Bondage describes the personal distress.  If you have ever been controlled you can relate to this.  Is based on personal experience.  If you are being controlled I suggest you plan for your freedom.  After I took my freedom back I had to start over.  It was a scary and enlightening time.  I learned much about myself, stuff I had forgotten being in bondage.

If You Could See.... describes the social distress.  There are many things that need to get fixed in society.  The world is becoming more populous and modern, and adjustments have to be made.  It covers violence, education, health care, medical inadequacies, and how we think of intelligence.  These are obviously passions of mine.  We are much more that what we've been told we were in the 20th century.

DOOM! covers the big picture.  Its states different scientific findings that can spell the destruction of the human race.  These destructive forces are not man made but are all natural disasters.  A Gamma Ray Burst eminates from a supernova.  Think of it as a massive laser that can destroy all life on planet Earth.  Asteroid impacts have been discussed in recent history.  You may know about them already.  But the right size asteroid can wipe out all life on Earth.  The Yosemite Caldera Eruption is a future event on Earth that has the potential to kill many people and animals in the United States.  The Great End refers to a newer theory based on the expansion of the Universe as observed by Edwin Hubble in 1929.  It states that the Universe will come to a point of expansions that molecules and atoms will not be able to maintain their integrity.  Thus we will be torn apart.  At any rate this word pic paints the picture that our time, the human time, is limited.

I feel that these word pics give some perspective on life.  There is more to life than just ourselves, yet if we are not free how can we help?  I write these as an exercise of intuition and analytical thinking.  I don't deem myself a poet so I've been reluctant to call these poems.  They do help me stretch my creative writing skills and word usage.

The Illusion Of Control

We humans like to manage and hoard and control things.  We learn the word "mine" at a very young age.  We lock down our stuff.  We lug our belongings through the years.  We even drag our friends and family through time.  We do all of this because we want a sense of control on our lives, a sense of security.  If we take a step or two back and look at the bigger picture, we may see how small and futile our ability to control actually is.

Starting with the obvious, the economy, its easy to see that money does indeed make itself wings as the old adage goes.  The recession of 2009 made people loose a lot of money and assets.  The housing market collapsed after a period of record high gas prices.  Housing foreclosures began and continued throughout 2010.  People lost home ownership, jobs, credit.  Banks lots billions in bad investments.  Many people filed for bankruptcy.  Nobody could control it.  The only power they might have had is to try to get out of its way by selling off assets early.  The only recourse for people was to blame the government, because how else can you blame society?

Natural disasters is another power that cannot be controlled.  Who can stop an earthquake?  Who can quench a tornado?  How can you redirect a hurricane?  How can you calm a tsunami? Mega natural disasters like hurricane Katrina or the tsunami of 2004 killed thousands.  Five days before Katrina hit, I watched the Weather Channel and knew those people needed to evacuate.  Anybody who watched that program realized that people needed to evacuate.  Nobody listened, not the governments and not the people.  Why didn't they listened?  Even in face of natural disasters, people will try to stay where they are.  It takes courage to get up and go and leave all of your life your friends, your belongings, and your community behind.  Natural disasters change lives.  People are more often than not resistant to change.  They do not want to loose control.  In the end they have no choice, they will loose control.  They loose control over all their belongings and way of life.  It gets ripped from them by a force they barely can understand.  For them, control was an illusion.

There is an invisible force in everyday life that affects us. Its in every business, organization, plan and endeavor we work in.  Its made up of the conditions in which we work and can come back to bite us.  I call it the Nature Of The Beast.  The best illustration I can think of happened back in the 1990's. Companies were downsizing to cut costs.  Lots of companies.  And the companies decided to give someone the job of analyzing and rationalizing whom they were to cut.  Toward the end of the job these workers of job loss had to face the Nature Of The Beast.  The honest ones decided they had no choice but to recommend that they be cut as well, since their job was done and no more monetary benefit was going to come out of them remaining employed for the company.  Beware of the Nature Of The Beast.  Know its circumstances and how it works else you may be its next victim.  If you think you have control over your career, think again.  The Nature Of The Beast quells all illusion of control over your career.


The Economic Recession, Natural Disasters and Nature Of The Beast are only a small sample of the forces out there we cannot control.  So I say, loosen your grip on career, family, friends, belongings.  Give a little, and be more flexible.  You just might find a way to keep them for the long haul.  Sting sang a song, "If you love someone, set them free."  We should heed such advice, or the illusion of control might just vanish away like fog or smoke.

Democracy Is Freedom of Speech - Aung San Suu Kyi

Aung San Suu Kyi speaks after years of arrest.

How do we value our voice?  Do we get on our housetops and yell at the top of our lung hoping to be heard?  Do we shove our opinions down the throats of those who think differently?

After about seven years of house arrest, Aung San Suu Kyi is released.  She does not put on camouflage and arm herself with weapons of war.  All she has is her ideas of democracy and a voice, a gentle voice.  A voice that makes a countries military tremble in their combat boots.  That gentle voice has the attention of the World and of its leaders.

Aung San Suu Kyi is a warrior.  There is no doubt in my mind.  But her warfare is in the realm of communication.  She has suffered loss, as any warrior does.  Her husband has died halfway around the world from her.  Yet she chose to keep up the fight.

It is said that the pen is mightier than the sword.  Effective communication can and does move people.  How do you value your voice?

Write.

Write your ideas, your thoughts, your poetry, your novel, your short story, your essay, your persuassion, your passion, your dreams.

Write.  Dammit, write.